Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Life like ashes

So, basically life feels like a bunch of ashes right now. Everyday my faith is challenged by my circumstances, and I find that i spend more time rationalizing my feelings away than I spend acknowleging i even have feelings. My marriage has failed, i work a crappy job and see no hope for my future, but inspite of all these things, i say as Job said, "though he slay me, yet  will i praise him".

in some ways while i hate the way life is right now, i appreciate that it is bringing back to basics, and teaching me more about the woman I am and the woman i am becoming... so Satan, bring it, and God get me through it.... burn away the chaff, refine me like silver and carry me because otherwise, im not gonna make it.